.°• ` [PART 4/4] Final
(We are thinking abt doing smt that act is really hyping me! Not a SURE sure thing, but we want to make a kind of "pride picnic", the idea sounds nice and we will invite some friends as well. I'm so excited bc other than being with the ppl I love I can finally express myself freely, even if for a while. I hope things end up well, i already asked for permission so now "just you wait" lolz)
They do know about our past situation bc i was dumb enough to trust they would act be comprehensive for once...so casually telling them I'm going out with a "friend" isn't going to happen....
Maybe organizing group stuff so she would "eventually" be called sounds bad bc ik i wouldn't give much attention to others as well.....💀 (thats the group stuff we organizing)
Idk what do...there's ppl i trust that maybe could help me, but it would be a whole broader thing that im not capable of sustaining rn... I wish i didn't had to lie to love who i love, but life is not perfect....at last im not actively running away and lying, I'll just keep it private until I can do something about, like have indepence to at last see her by myself and dont depend on them or their permission for it...
In short: things are nice, and getting better in a slow pace. Slow but not steady either TwT, but mostly good days :3 - yeah, I agree :3 the only thing fucking up my life is my mind sooo yeah TwT im alright chat :3
(We are thinking abt doing smt that act is really hyping me! Not a SURE sure thing, but we want to make a kind of "pride picnic", the idea sounds nice and we will invite some friends as well. I'm so excited bc other than being with the ppl I love I can finally express myself freely, even if for a while. I hope things end up well, i already asked for permission so now "just you wait" lolz)
They do know about our past situation bc i was dumb enough to trust they would act be comprehensive for once...so casually telling them I'm going out with a "friend" isn't going to happen....
Maybe organizing group stuff so she would "eventually" be called sounds bad bc ik i wouldn't give much attention to others as well.....💀 (thats the group stuff we organizing)
Idk what do...there's ppl i trust that maybe could help me, but it would be a whole broader thing that im not capable of sustaining rn... I wish i didn't had to lie to love who i love, but life is not perfect....at last im not actively running away and lying, I'll just keep it private until I can do something about, like have indepence to at last see her by myself and dont depend on them or their permission for it...
In short: things are nice, and getting better in a slow pace. Slow but not steady either TwT, but mostly good days :3 - yeah, I agree :3 the only thing fucking up my life is my mind sooo yeah TwT im alright chat :3
.°• ` [PART 4/4] Final
(We are thinking abt doing smt that act is really hyping me! Not a SURE sure thing, but we want to make a kind of "pride picnic", the idea sounds nice and we will invite some friends as well. I'm so excited bc other than being with the ppl I love I can finally express myself freely, even if for a while. I hope things end up well, i already asked for permission so now "just you wait" lolz)
They do know about our past situation bc i was dumb enough to trust they would act be comprehensive for once...so casually telling them I'm going out with a "friend" isn't going to happen....
Maybe organizing group stuff so she would "eventually" be called sounds bad bc ik i wouldn't give much attention to others as well.....💀 (thats the group stuff we organizing)
Idk what do...there's ppl i trust that maybe could help me, but it would be a whole broader thing that im not capable of sustaining rn... I wish i didn't had to lie to love who i love, but life is not perfect....at last im not actively running away and lying, I'll just keep it private until I can do something about, like have indepence to at last see her by myself and dont depend on them or their permission for it...
In short: things are nice, and getting better in a slow pace. Slow but not steady either TwT, but mostly good days :3 - yeah, I agree :3 the only thing fucking up my life is my mind sooo yeah TwT im alright chat :3
